ramblings

[dreamtrance]

I sit down and think about it and really I've only been writing for a few months. This is my first/only fandom. I only have a handful of stories to my name.
All that is nothing compared to most of the authors I read and a lot of the ones I dont who have been known for a long while and unkonwn for even longer.

It's weird because I sit here and think about the number of plot bunnies in my head, and possible stories and I just roll my eyes. I don't want to write the funny/happy AU. I don't want to write the schmoopy fic where everyone gets what they want. I've written the fic where Chris is broken and Joey fixes him. I have or could because more of the same resides in my head.

I want to write what I feel. What's burried deep inside me. I want to rip Chris apart and leave him broken. I want Joey to hate himself because he can't fix Chris. I want the humor and the snark to be laden with pain and anger. I don't want schmoop, I don't want happy.

But I can't write it. It hurts too much.

Comments

[coolbandchick.livejournal.com]

[wraps CK up in a big hug]

[dreamtrance.livejournal.com]

*hugsback* thank you dear
I really *really* need to come see you again

Re:

[coolbandchick.livejournal.com]

Yes you do! Because that would be good times! :)

[newdaydawning.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight*

[alexparker.livejournal.com]

Maybe you're not ready for that yet. You can't just dive into the deep end, you know...

Someday, honey...someday. And then it'll be wonderful.

[dreamtrance.livejournal.com]

honestly I think I'm just scared of it *shrugs*

besides I was always the one who dove in head first without thinking

but yeah dont know about hte wonderful part