dreamtrance | 'the one with the hair'

powrhug has dubed today Lovin' Chris Day so I'm taking this moment to babble about that wonderful man.

this got long so I'm cutting.

The Site: addicted2chris.com

It's not very often that I start a project and actually stick with it for a long time but addicted2chris had been one of the few things that has changed with me and stayed constant. I opened the site in December of 1998. Right after I saw nsync for the second time (first time headlining). The site was on geocities and eventually grew until it covered 5 separate geocities accounts.

The actual domain addicted2chris.com was purchased on April 4th, 2000 and opened for business a week later. It has continued to grow, at one time spending 3 weeks in the top 10 nsync sites peaking at #3. It has changed hosting companies more times than I'd like to admit but was never closed for more than a few days.

The site even survived my extreme trauma after Chris cut off the braids (if you want to read more about that go here)

This site is my way of sharing my love for Chris and being a part of this whole phenomenon and I'm proud to say that addicted2chris is the original Chris site, the first Chris domain and the longest lasting individual site and as of today we have had 41,871 visitors since September 2000.

More than once I've thought about closing the site but I can't bring myself to do it. It means too much to me.

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The Fiction: from marysue to slash

I never intended to get into fanfic, of any sort. I was content with my site and my friends but a mailing list I ran with 3 of my online friends spawned a story which kept me writing. At first it was just my way of having something to do. It was fun to pretend and make up stories. Nothing I wrote was very good but it was entertaining none the less.

When the general fanfic lost my interest I stopped writing and sharing and never really missed it.

That was until I was introduced to slash by a friend. It started out as more of a curiosity thing than anything else. It was totally different to read people writing the guys with each other instead of random, made-up characters. I never really went searching for the fiction but when I found Lois and Rhys I was hooked. My biggest reason for reading and sticking around was the fact that these authors wrote a side of the guys that never would or could be seen. I was intrigued by the characterizations and the players. The biggest thing for me was the way Chris was portrayed. It wasn't always the happy, funny guy you see on TV. All of a sudden Chris was broken and hurt. He was confused and complex. He became three dimensional in a way that only the imagination could bring about.

Writing lends the same dynamic to the characters only when I write I control them. They're mine and I can do with them what I want. I can make them feel. I can make them cry or laugh. It's my way of being a part of their lives in a way I wouldnt want to in real life. It's an escape.

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The Group: *NSync/*Nsync/'Nsync/'nsync

Justin, Chris, Joey, Lance, JC.

We all know that the group is made up of these 5 guys. No more, no less. Each one has their own personality, their own purpose, their own place. Everyone has their favorite of the five and everyone can make an argument about why so and so is their man. Really it doesn't matter because without the other 4 you don't have a group.

The initial dream came from Chris but was easily shared by the other four. They made up his dream and in turned made their collective dream come true.

It's not hard to see that these five men love each other, more than friends, more than brothers. Even when apart they're together in something that reaches beyond this reality and this time.

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The Man: Christopher Alan Kirkpatrick

From the moment I picked Chris out of the 5 guys in the video I came to know as 'I Want You Back' on MTV he was my favorite. He was the weird one, the crazy one, the oddball. It started with just that video and has escalated through 15 concerts, 2 soundcheck parties, one episode of shaking hands, CFTC IV, a golf tournament and numerous TV appearances.

The reasons I fell for Chris never swayed, only multiplied into more. I came to see Chris, through TV and concerts, as even more of a goofball and crazy guy who didn't seem to care what anyone thought. He messed around, caused trouble and just had fun.

Come the lawsuit Pre-NSA this fun-loving happy guy became the rock that kept 5 friends from losing their dream. Chris was no longer the one messing around and cracking jokes. He was the one sticking by his guys and holding his head up fighting for his dream.

When the fight was over and they came out on top we saw a proud man a little rough around the edges. No one can come that close to losing everything and come out unscathed.

But through everything he's kept a smile on his face and has never been afraid to stand up for his friends, his brothers and show the world how much he loves these guys, this group, this dream.

One man, a part of something huge.

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*shrugs* no real point to this just my way of getting some of the thoughts bouncing around in my head out in words. It may make no sense, everyone may not agree, but it doesn't matter. It's just me.